Thinking out loud.

"life can only be understood looking backwards, but it must be lived forwarid"

im in hong kong right now, waiting for my flight back to vancouver. and really thought it is such a perfect time to blog. it has been two years since my last post. even before Bistro Chez Fio opened! oh how time has flown. Chez Fio is not just a random blog of my thoughts anymore hahaha i hope random customers dont google search and find this ... perhaps time for a blogspot name change ... ill think about it later...  what has played out over two years!

i cannot of imagined the experience and people i have met and what has played out in Brunei. it has been nothing but amazing. living a dream really. doing what i love and getting to feed so many people. i realize how awesome being out of vancouver has been, there were times i was so home sick, times i wanted to give up. even extremely frustrated with how things are run. yet my appreciation for the simplest things has grown. living in a small country def has its pros.

Bistro Chez Fio has grown so much since the first day- from different menus, opening hours, staff, but what always remains was that no matter what God always provided. It has only been two years am i ready to move on? I mean what comes next? I dont really know what it means to be a restaurant owner actually. I do know that I believe in people and trust that when people see the passion and care that is placed into a goal things are done well. Love goes a long way. i feel like i have contributed to the Brunei food scene and that makes me happy.,giving people a special place to dine and even hold events and most of all expanding their food vocab..it amazes me when someone has never had a candy apple in their life or even had pecan pie! hahahaa.... over the past two years the food industry has expanded with a ton of new restaurants, better eating choices, and a closer community of restaurant owners... what is next? im hoping farm to table dining, increase in sustainability, local eating, and maybe even one day in brunei they would have its own dairy farms! i think that might take 20 years hahaha jk

Its interesting how life just happens sometimes. you meet people, share experiences, and grow. sometimes i feel like im still 16 other times i feel like im an adult and can make my own decisions and mistakes..yet times i feel so ready to just be an adult cuz im not there yet. whatever that means. maybe it means paying more bills getting married and having kids... lol i dunno. is that what defines adulthood... or when your financially independent and living on your own?

how do we know what we want out of life? im not really sure if there is even anything i want... maybe im more of a giver.. i dont know what i want yet i know i want to give as much as i can to others...

can it just be as simple as Living simply, Laughing often, and Loving deeply....

 Im going to just enjoy my time back in vancouver. excited to spend so much time with people. and just be present. i will make the most out of every day.