Surrender

It always seems like it is at night, or middle of night, or odd times when i wake up that God teaches me, or speaks, or rebukes me of things...  I woke up at 4:30... i still would consider that the middle of the night haha..sleep was disturbed cuz i felt a bit warm and my hands were super dry cuz of the a/c..

I know when i wake up in the middle of the night its the best time for me to just have some quiet time.. cuz i know there must be a reason why im up right..it's not just because i felt hot...if that were the case i would just throw off my blanket and fallen back asleep.... so i just spent time reading and praying... and u know the last few times when in the presence of the HS.. i have this feeling that my heart is being literally stitched up.. stitched back together... like there is slight pain like someone actually working on it... kinda crazy right? my brokenheart is slowly being sewn back together by God. Funny then the song Surrender pops into my head. Wow... exactly what i feel like im going through! Gosh.Old school sunday school song I always used to sing ..exaclty ministering to me so personally.
God you are awesome!

"I'm giving you my heart, and all that is within I lay it all down for the sake of you my King 

I'm giving you my dreams, I'm laying down my rights I'm giving up my pride for the promise of new life 

And I surrender all to you, all to you And I surrender all to you, all to you

I'm singing You this song, I'm waiting at the cross And all the world holds dear, I count it all as loss For the sake of knowing You for the glory of Your name To know the lasting joy, even sharing in Your pain"

i guess i just wanted to share this experience and blog about it in the early morn still before the day comes and business takes over. eh its 6:30 now.. i wonder if i should go back to sleep or get up and make breakfast.. ooo i totally actually feel like pancakes right now haha.. i think ill get up and make some!! =]

laters <3