Disneyland

The other day i woke up from a really sad dream in the morning. one of those dreams where u feel like you are at war with your emotions..it felt so real that you think you are in reality until u wake up.. and the few mins when awake u still feel the feelings that were from the dream... ya ... it was a dream that i wish i knew the ending to but it was too painful going through it that i had to just wake up in the middle...

the dream reminded me of my past and revealed things that i will not get to experience anymore in the future... i felt so much saddness and pain

the most intense part of the dream where i woke up was because you told me our hopes of one day going to Disneyland together will never happen anymore..and u gave me back the map i kept... yet on the map of the park there happened to be a branch of Bistro Chez Fio in Disneyland! haha of all places the Happiest Place on Earth...

what the heck i didnt really see what this dream was about till i just typed it out... gosh i guess my happily ever after was never with you... you gave me back the map of Disneyland i thought we would share .. and now it included something better

i dont know exactly what my future holds.. i've been thinking a lot about where would i end up "settling" down. like right now i am in brunei... im adjusting and everything but what if i adjust so well that i end up wanting to really live more than the next 5 years of my life here.. what if i want to settle here? ...what about vancouver? ahh i shouldn't be thinking about this kinda of stuff right now its not n e time soon at least or in the near future..

i shared my thoughts about this brunei and canada thing with my mom and two things she said that was like a "yaa true moment".. first she said nothing changes the fact that you are Canadian by birth but also Bruneian.. and nobody is in one place forever...
her two things she said just brought me out of like "ahhh what do i do mode?!".. to focus on God made me mode and He knows what he is doing... Especially cuz i am in no control over who my family was going to be or where i was born.. and im only here on this earth for so long..

there are no coincidences.. no doubt things happen for a reason even though i may not understand the reason

i finally changed my location of my profile to brunei now..and a new profile pic woohoo