Thoughts and Memories

We live in the present, hope for the future, remember the past.

When i'm not busy working, my thoughts often wonder... and a lot of the time it brings back memories of good times shared in the past with people. Picture snip bits and the happy feelings. Today I started to think about the last hoorah hangout at Library Square that had before leaving to Brunei, it makes me really smile to remember the small little silly things, the funny things that were said, the people who came, the start of snow fall, but it also is so bittersweet, that THAT night cannot ever repeat itself. Of course there will be other good times, but that memory of that night will be kept with me. My thoughts often wonder back to Vancouver... right now i even am craving a pumpkin spice muffin from timmy's... =]

At times i can't help but think about you, wondered where you are, what you are doing, how your day is going by, all i can do is pray that God's guidance is with you.

Heatbreak is really one of the most painful things anyone has to go through, be it the heartbreak of someone passing away, or a broken relationship, or even rebelious kids... all i could do during these past few months is lean on God with everything i have....and truely He has lead and provided even in the depts of sorrow...
i sort of feel like a tiny bit of Job right now...how everything was stripped from him yet he did not curse God...he was faithful ..and in the end God blessed him with more!

God has been blessing me with more, more than i ever expected... more than i can even understand why... more than i even think that i deserve...really i dont deserve any of this...it is more than im used too .... i still think it is hard to accept that God knows what is best for me and His plan is being carried out to completion.

It is so fitting that everything is just happening around Thanksgiving weekend back home, fitting that i really just want to give thanks for everything in my life. Fitting that my gratitude challenge is coming to an end as i challenged myself up till my birthday. Fitting that i can move on to the next year of my life. This year felt too fast it is just like yesterday i was celebrating my 23rd in Australia at chey chey mengs wedding. And it felt like the day yesterday yeserday i was celebreating my 22nd at Broadmoor with a cocktail party, and the yesterday yesterday yesterday my 21st at Decourcy.... 3 years in a blink... how fleeting this life is.

Gratitude Challenge
Thank Lord for:
1) All the little things that you know about me that moves my heart.
2) Your love shown through others, how practically ppl i just met celebrating my birthday in advance wow! honestly Lord i thought i would be "forgotten" about this year.
3) The amazing week that have had- i cant believe it is Saturday already!
4) G ee who came by to check up on me and chat
5) These cool looking birds here in brunei that make me smile they look like pretty penguins
6) Going to Macau and HK in 2 days
7) Being able to spend my birthday in Macau!!
8) Great food, great company
9) teaching me how to receive so i can give.
10) financial stability