There are days where i wake up and the few seconds of waking up i don't remember where i am.... then it hits me i'm in Brunei...
I even think to myself at times what the heck am i doing here?!... and it doesnt help when i meet new ppl they are like wahh from Canada how are u adjusting?! (its like they themselves think Brunei is a sucky place with nothing to do)... doubts just flood my mind.... did i make the right decision.. what the heck all my friends and familiarity is back home.. -_-''' (am i a loner?) gosh fio... im in my twenties and im in a country where there is no alcohol, no clubbing, no partying well cuz i havent met those kinda of ppl yet... It is like God had to put me here to wrestle with the desires of the flesh... something i think i've always struggled with since young..wanting to me one of the "cool" kids who do the "bad" things...
i dunno ... living here the discipline i'm learning from God, it is amazing... but also amazing painful
Lord why is it so hard! Let your will be done not mine. Learning really what it means in sharing in Christ's suffering in my own way... God remind me of your strength and love.
Things i've been grateful for the last few days:
1) The rain that reminds me of vancouver
2) Even when things don't go right there is another day
3) Encouragement from my parents
4) Down Time in the morning
5) Having dinner out the last three nights
6) listening to old stories of adults
7) Having God to turn to always
8) seeing big families
9) hearing a story of a real life breakup and makeup
10) Having a God that uplifts, builds up, and cares
God has placed you in Brunei for a reason :) I think we're so distracted here in Vancouver, by too many luxuries, too many conveniences that we tend to forget about the simpler things in life. I think that's what Brunei allows you to see! And Fio, you're totally one of the cool kids ;) Don't have to go clubbing, party and drink to be one :P
ReplyDeleteAlways praying for you, sis :) Can't wait to seee you next year!!! <3
thank you tess! sometimes a lot of what if's come into my mind. but i know i have to just trust God and His leading. lol not always an easy task. Btw amazing fam pics for kevin. did u hear from the bank?
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