My Time is God's Time

I've been reading this Christian book recently called Surprised by the Voice of God. It's been a kinda an up and down book with a lot of information that at times is way too over my head but there are parts where also have learned some real truths about my relationship with God. One of them is about how dreams can be a tool that God uses to speak to me. I'm a person who doesn't usually remember dreaming at night but on those occasional times that I do wake up and remember that I was dreaming I always feel like it is something important. I get reminded of certain things and certain feelings. Last night I woke up in the middle of the night from a dream that reminded me that God is almighty, powerful, and that everything is in His control. What a comfort really something I needed and I just kept thinking about Yes God is in control.

Another truth in the book that I was reminded about is that I shouldn't be "finding" time for God. My time is God's time how am I am totally available for God, throughout the day? How do I serve God with every aspect of my life.. from sitting in front of a computer... to meeting with people.. being around my family .. working..eating.. sleeping..being bored.. being lazy.. being tired or sad.. everything... I often feel like the Israelites who are so forgetful one minute Praising God the next complaining to God...

I am remembering God is sovereign!! all- knowing, all- wise, all- powerful, all- loving!! It is amazingly mind blowing... when you fall, you get back up and hold on to the person of God

God thank you for:
1) Your promises "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28
2) Your Sovereignty
3) Your plan for my life
4) Your discipline in my life
5) Your forgiveness of sins
6) Your ability to restort
7) the creative ways you can teach me
8) Your intimate knowledge of me
9) Your perfect timing
10) Your love that never fails, never changes, never stops, never runs out, never gives up

Confident Hope

"I pray that God, the source of hope, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in him. Then you will overflow with confident hope through the power of the Holy Spirit." Romans 15:13 NLT

Gratitude Challenge Day 11
1) road trip down to Miri to scope out commercial kitchen equipment
2) really friendly and nice boss man that was so helpful and took time to talk about everything needed
3) the bond between family members- seeing my grand aunt, grand uncle and baby cousin
4) chocolate mousse cake
5) finding this pretty dress thats mustard coloured and fit well
6) Chris Tomlin worship music
7) God putting on a light show for me to marvel at with all the lightening
8) Safety driving back from miri- it was raining so hard at some points you couldnt even see!
9) time i can spend with my parents because never know when they wont be around anymore
10) the truth that i deserve someone who actually wants to be with me and wants to take care of me

Bistro Update: Architect layout done today! have to pick them up tomorrow wooHOO Praise God! 

Digging Down Deep to Find My Roots

Lord thank you for
1) good health
2) kind people
3) my parents wanting to give me the best
4) chicken and century egg porridge
5) Romans Ch 7 that talks about struggling with sin
6) Romans Ch 8 where life can be lived through You
7) how my dad provides
8) heart to heart talks
9) electricity
10) the simple life

lol some random thoughts.
i like chocolate, i like ice cream, i like sushi, i like pizza, i like cheese, i like fries esp poutine, i like a good cake, i like watching food shows, i like playing guitar, i like playing piano, i like reading, i like swimming, i like playing tennis, i like listening to chillaxing music, i like watching chick flicks, i like taking pictures, i like being a tourist in my own city im living in, i like grocery shopping, i like having meals with people, i like dacing like a goof, i like stuffed animals, i like watching the canucks play, i like making food for ppl, i like cartoon movies like pixar, i like when ppl give me cards or letters, i like connecting with people

im not much of a clothes shopper....i like browsing through stuff instead of going in knowing what i want to get.... im not much of a techy..

Growing Wisdom

the last few weeks i think i've been growing up! u know why.. it is cuz i can finally feel my wisdom teeth poking out!! hahaha i'm growing wisdom!!! FUNNY!! and ironic at the same time.. at the perfect time in my life.. i always wondered when they would come... i think im such a late bloomer cuz so many ppl i know already had there wisdom teeth remove.. i hope mine dont have to be removed. i dunno cuz i havent been to a dentist in a couple years will see if the pain comes

speaking of wisdom there are some things i've "re-learned" or became real truths to me the last few days..things i had to write down to TELL MYSELF to remind myself..  and im thankful for how God has used this time to reveal these things to me

1) most important relationship in life is the personal intimate relationship with God!! - doesnt matter the family, kids, spouse, gf/bf, friends.. how is that possible? cuz in the end when all else fades God is always there, yesterday, today, tomorrow, forever... [doesnt that sound selfish dont care about your other relationships (no not what im saying, what im saying is need to find your identity in Christ not in others, we need to be relational ppl THROUGH God because of God)]

2) if circumstances/ relationships are hindering you from this personal relationship with God you once had. be wary!! there circumstances need to end or be resolved/ fixed... your desire of an intimate relationship with God cannot be pushed aside... even when there are so much worldly things at stake- finance, lust, material possessions..true repentance!!! true change can only come true healing and growth

3) God is loving you fully and completely ... why are you rejecting it and not loving him back fully?

4) You have free choice but God really really wants you to love Him, God cannot or will not make you by force to love Him even though He wants to!

5) God knows all things before it is done, and continues to know all things.  He can see the whole picture of your life. Even through times of heartbreak he sees, he feels the pain.

6) He calls you my Child, my Bride, my Lover, my All ..Do you call him your Father, your Groom, your lover, your all ?

7) It is only when you hit rock bottom and are at life's most desperate moments where you realize you can stand up again because of your faith

8) life is a process, sanctification is a process... it is not an easy road behind rose coloured glasses, it is going to be SO HARD!

9) God will see you through

10) There is victory at the end of the race because He has already completed it.

Where is my home?

i wish i never moved around so much in my life... currently my moving count in houses in my life is 12...
i often dont know where i can call home.. is my home in canada or brunei..
they say home is where the heart is
but i do not know where my heart is.. canada or brunei ... each place has different parts of my heart?

my home is in heaven and there are days i just wish i can be taken there already...

today is a hard day to think about what i am thankful for... but ill still try
1) being able to drive
2) my parents providing for me
3) the warmth of the sun
4) the desperation for God to fill me
5) being able to play the piano
6) wearing shorts
7) tom shoes
8) who i am in Christ
9) brokeness
10) ...

Questions

i wake up way before there is any sign of the sun rising.... i can hear the drone of the first of the five prayers of the day coming from the closest mosque outside

my thoughts that flood my mind...
why? why me? why now? why why why....
what? what happened? what is going on? what changed? what did i do? what have we done? what did u do? what did u not do? what did i not do? what are u doing? what am i do? ... what what what what....
who am i? who are u? who cares....
how come......
how can....
how was i fooled?

change.
stomach please stop churning
heart please stop breaking
head please stop thinking

Blessings

Thank You for
1) a new season of my life
2) emotions
3) beautiful blue skies
4) baked goods
5) wisdom from older ppl who has experienced life
6) hope of greater things to come
7) unconditional love
8) laksa
9) cameras to capture moments
10) the private beaches in brunei